Hope

Crying When God Gives What I Need and Not What I Want

Crying When God Gives What I Need and Not What I Want

I thought I'd hidden my tears. Until the woman to my left scooted a few inches away, and my husband gave my shoulder a squeeze. He knew what the woman did not. He knew the pastor had said something that touched the tender spot in my heart, the place where I long for the healthy father I never had.

When The Doctor Can't Fix Your Child

When The Doctor Can't Fix Your Child

No one can prepare you for what it’s like to be a witness of the continued struggle in your child, just to survive. There’s no chapter on that in the pregnancy books. There’s no guidebook for how to be a parent of the suffering. Or is there?

Post Tenebras Lux Series: Anchored Hope

Post Tenebras Lux Series: Anchored Hope

The next song in our Post Tenebras Lux series is a song by Matt Papa and Matt Boswell called "Christ the Sure and Steady Anchor." Listening for the first time, I couldn't help but think of how our recent struggles with the effects of autism made me feel like a tattered boat with torn sails, like the first verse describes.

Saying You Care is Not the Same as Showing It

Saying You Care is Not the Same as Showing It

Prayer is great, and always the first thing we should do, but that is the prayer part. How might the care part look? It might be something simple.

How I Find Refuge When I Am Not Enough

How I Find Refuge When I Am Not Enough

When I think back on the hardest days and years of our son’s journey, I recall wanting God’s help, expecting His help, waiting for His help, while all the time trying to solve all the problems and carry all the burdens on my own. I don’t remember asking for His help or moving to Him for His help and shelter until I completely exhausted myself and physically broke.